Morning Pages..

Money. I'll have a little bit of it now. This is good. I was worried for a while that I would. Our budget indicated that I needed a part time job in order to make things work out. John hired me as Worship Arts Director for Mosaic. yues, I'm intimidated by it. It's people like Kirk and nathan that keep me from going over the edge.I think I'ld lose it... this was an area closed off but the people of Town Center which used to be called Tara Hill needed to be above suspicion from the police so they unenclosed it...was that while it was called Tara Hill, here. I'll give you the tour, I used to live here. Really. the girls wanted to go out with me. Come here and take your medicine you useless pup. I finished The Shining by Stephen King. It's been ten years or more since I read that novel. I forgot how much more to it there was than the movie. 10 pages a day. Could I do it? Should I even try. What if I just tried for a few pages a day. I'd accomplish something that at least something to edit. Maybe if I wasn't so hung up on structure it could work. Is that what I'm meant for though is that what I really want. A career as a writer. Is this stuff with Mosaic just a side think whilie I take the necessar steps and time to get established [as a writer].

New Job and Next Writing Course

Well, I ordered the next course. I'm starting the Journeyman Level with The Christian Writer's Guild, excuse me The Jerry B. Jenkins Christian Writer's Guild. I'm kind of excited. Both for that and for the new job. My pastor hired me on as Worship Arts Director of Mosaic Fellowship.


It will cut into time for writing but will also help me afford to. Well, maybe....I'm also directing a show for CYT next semester so the next Writing for the Soul Conference is definitely out.

The New Executive Artistic Director for CYT...

Is not going to be me. I got the call just after 9:30 PM last night. They’re going with Laura Little. Needless to say, I’m a bit disappointed in the decision. I’m even a bit depressed about it. I’m not quite ready for the “Oh, God has something better for yous” quite yet. I’m not yet convinced of that in my heart. I’m more in the mood to hear, “Laura turned down the job.” Not that I have anything against Laura. She’s much more attuned to what has been happening with the program while I’ve been away and I’m sure she’s very qualified for the job. I’m sure a lot of prayer went into this process and I have to believe, if only in my rational mind, that God is behind this decision and is still sovereign. I’m not happy about it though and I wonder at that wasted month of application and interviews. What was that about? I now realize that I wanted this more than I’ve wanted anything in a while.

I guess I also feel hurt and rejected. Jerry White had some nice things to say about me and that is encouraging, but I struggle with the feeling that I came up short, that I’m not good enough. I know that’s not true either though.

I’m sure I’ll snap out of this in a day or so. The good news, I can start to stop planning my schedule around the potentiality of working full time for CYT and get on with other things that need my more focused attention. Maybe even writing.

I Find Out Tomorrow...

I just got my first issue of my re-subsription to WD. I'm so excited. I look forward to turning each page while sitting at McDonald's sipping coffee despite my mild allergic reaction to caffeine. Ahh, paradise. I get so inspired and just all, "I want to do it and I want to do it now!"

There is a frustration though. As I mentioned in my previous post, I am once again torn between the potential of being the Artistic Director for CYT Spokane (what I perceive to be a very important position) and being a full time writer.

The decision will slip further away from my hands tomorrow night when the CYT Spokane Board makes its decision about who will be the next Executive Artist Director

I was excited last night as I helped out at their $65 a head fundraiser dinner. I was emceeing for the improv kids. They were wonderful and in top form. This reflected well on me as I led them and it also gave me a chance to schmooze a little more with a few of the board members.

One of the parents pulled me aside and pointed out what an asset I am to CYT whether or not I get the job. I was blessed.

The Shining

I've been listening to Stephen King's The Shining in audio book form, read by Campbell Scott. I just thing King is amazing the way he takes his time to set up and tell his story. It is obvious that he is so into what he is doing. He enjoys writing.

The Next Step

Well, I finished my correspondence course with The Christian Writer's Guild. I want to take the next course of The Journeyman level. Time is the key thing though. I need to get a full time job and I'm being considered for a position as the Executive Artistic Director of CYT Spokane. I'm excited about it. I've it through two interviews and I have a third round tonight. I am still pursuing my passion through the arts. I'm teaching a sketch comedy writing class and if I am hired as the director I will have a quarterly publication to write and edit...The CYT Times. Unfortunately, I fear that it will interfere with other writing of dramas and other fiction. I trust that this is God's leading and his opening of a door. I will walk through it as far as he will allow.